Zzz, today was one of the worst days of my life.


well, i shouldn't have gone with her.

it was just the worst decision ever;
i shouldn't have gone at all.
it made me look back.
it made me think back,
it made me feel what i had felt,
and never wanted to feel again.
since i knew, somehow .
it'd still be the same.

but i just had to .
but i just had to .
i had to at least try .
i had yet to get over it.

remembering those things ,
the little things you did ;
that made me fee this way .
maybe you'd never notice,
but i still continue to hope ;
that you'd see what i wanted you to.

thinking back on what i did ,
it made me feel worse &worse .
though doing that hurts me .
it was just God's will.
it was just punishment ;
it was just cos of you ,
you,
you,
you.

but i just had to .
but i just had to .
i had to at least try .
i had yet to get over it.

remembering those things ,
the little things you did ;
that made me feel the same .
it didn't matter if i rewind the past ,
or maybe not.
it would still be the same.
it would definitely ,
with no doubt.,
still be the same.

why couldn't you just stop saying?
why couldn't i just stop thinking?
why couldn't you stop ignoring me?
why couldnt' i just cut off; stop?
although i knew,
it'd still be the same.
the same, same.

but i just had to .
but i just had to .
i had to at least try .
i had yet to get over it.

remembering those things ,
the little things you did ;
that made me fee this way .
maybe you'd never notice,
but i still continue to hope ;
that you'd see what i wanted you to.

remembering those things ,
the little things you did ;
that made me feel the same .
it didn't matter if i rewind the past ,
or maybe not.
it would still be the same.
it would definitely ,
with no doubt.,
still be the same.


written @ 10.11am. this took 20 minutes.
"still the same".

I’m just a typical, average girl, everything teenager -- except for my love for dance. Ok, well, not so normal. I’m kinda hyperactive sometimes. I do what needs to be done first, like homework. I like getting presents, although sometimes, honestly, some of them are more neglected attended to than the rest. In all of my 14 years (soon), I have seen a person that can do a 270 degrees split in person. I hope to be one of them, though. I school at Dunman High, the best school on the surface of the Earth. But that’s just my opinion.

Oh, and before I forget, seriously. I forget this all the time. My name is Rachel.